Early 2001, meet woman, very pleasant, not demanding at all, doesn't care I have no money to spend on her. Affair begins. Continue this way in secret for two years. (I know complete scumbag maneuver... no need to remind me...I'm reminded every day..).
Early spring 2003, knew this day was coming, had been anticipating it for years...Caught in my own web..no escape now...Confront wife upon her discovery of my infidelity...No remorse only anger...I had been sidelined by her and her mothers need for control...And she had broken one of my four Cardinal Rules of a Relationship... Rule#4:Never use sex (or withholding of such) as a weapon else I shall seek out a new arms dealer....
Late summer 2003..Suspicions I had had for years turn out to be true...Due to her mothers position as manager in the bank money, has been being shifted here and there to cover
spending habits...Left the house earlier in the summer and had been sleeping in my car...still working ...still driving my kids around...Call from my daughter on the day of her birthday party pleading with me not to come because mommy said she would call the cops if I showed up at the bowling alley (?)(No criminal record here. Never had even been approached by a police officer in my life) I knew the cops would have no reason for arrest, in fact, was pretty sure wife would get in trouble...But to save my child the pain of such a nasty spectacle I refrained from appearing at her party...(Did see her later, her, my son and myself had our own get together.) During this time wife had also been pursuing me for...*ahem* that which she had withheld before...
October 2003...Wife informs me that she wants entire paycheck...I may keep $100 but she gets the rest...emotional blackmail ensues...not to mention aggravated harassment...Shows up at job and informs me that if she does not get her money certain accusation will fly...The type of thing that even if proven false in court, still cause you to become a pariah. Stop interacting with children at this point...Ask boss to help but she has already informed him that if he moves against her she will tell his wife about his girlfriend boss tells her he will do whatever he can to help her keep me in check(She actually gloated about this at a later date.) Get third job, now working 19 hrs a day for six days a week 16 hours a day on seventh....Can only afford gas for car, insurance and basic needs...Still sleeping in car...Can't afford place to live and she still lives in my mother's house. (We had been renting the apartment upstairs.) Nedd car because all three jobs are mainly driving jobs..Begin to physically break down under strain...Numerous acccidents..one of which is permanently memorialized by a long black and red streak mark on divider of Verrazano Narrows bridge.
Winter 2003...Still in car, still working three jobs...Barely ever see kids except when they harass their mother to have grandmother drive them down to make sure daddy is okay...No driver side window because of accident mentioned above..heater is broke down...Boss says I can sleep in office....Wife finds out I am sleeping in office, calls corporate. Corporate calls boss asks if anyone has been sleeping on premises...Boss says no but informs me that it's back out to the car I go (I would park in front of building to sleep). Cold as hell...numerous snow storms...Put cardboard in drivers side window spot...Hunkered down under three flannels, sleep as best I can.
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